sometimes.......no not sometimes...most of the time i feel im being left alone

not because i dont belong but maybe because i

let my self feel so

not because i wanted that[who wants to be ignored anyway]but maybe because i cannot help it.

i just have that feeling of being dumped and left

behind for something or someone else....

im not really paranoid...i dont know

im just analysing the reason why.......

reasons...excuses...justifications from them

so pretty tired of hearing these

so  bored .....so used to hearing things

over and over......things happening one after

another.

do i ever give up ?id like to..i love to..but

on second thoughts....id like to try again

maybe im missing that feeling

feeling of being left alone

no one to defend but myself

for there i derived my strength

i derived my passion

i derived my love for myself

which only me can assure myself

that after all that is said and done

there is ONE up there

whos with me up to the end

and for that alone

i can go on.............