the pain wont stop

the hurt lingers...im losing motivation

IM BEGINNING TO FEEL PAIN AGAIN.

IVE BEEN THROUGH THIS

I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER

I SHOULD HAVE PREPARED...BUT

THERE ARE REALLY THINGS YOU CANT CONTROL

NO MATTER HOW BRAVE YOU ARE

NO MATTER HOW WISE

NO MATTER HOW PREPARED YOU MAY SEEM....

I WAS INTELLIGENT ENOUGH NOT TO FALL FOR THIS.BUT EVEN INTELLIGENCE  WAS NOT ENOUGH....PAIN STILL EXIST

AND ITS SO PAINFUL...SO PAINFUL

IM FALLING FOR THE RIGHT ONE AT THE WRONG TIME

DEMANDING AN OBLIGATION....DEMANDING A TIME

EFFORTS WERE GIVEN ...NOT EVEN ONCE DID I DID THAT

BEFORE...NOT EVEN ONCE

IM DOING IT NOW...TAKING THE RISKS

DEFYING MY HEAD....OBEYING MY HEART

BUT WHEN EVERYTHING SEEMS UNCLEAR

HOPES STARTS TO FALL

WISHES MELT

HAPPINESS IS NOWHERE....

ANTICIPATIONS STARTS TO DISAPPEAR

AND PAIN ...THAT PAIN U CANT IGNORE BEGINS

ITS LIKE  DRUM BEATING INSIDE YOU

WHEN YOU HEAR THE NAME

WHEN YOU HEAR THE SONG

WHEN YOU MISS THE TIMES

YOU FEEL THE PAIN

WHEN YOU CLOSE YOUR EYES TO SLEEP

WHEN YOU OPEN YOUR EYES IN WAKING UP

WHEN YOU HOLD THE CELL

WHEN TOU SEE THE NET.....IT HURTS NO END

DISTANCE MAY SEEM THE PROBLEM

COMMUNICATION MAYBE

OBLIGATION NOT INCLUDED

TIME MAYBE

SO HARD COPING UP ALONE

NOBODY SHOULD KNOW

IT WILL ADD TO THE PAIN

THIS TIME ...NO SHOULDER TO CRY ON

MADE A BRAVE FRONT

LAUGHING IN THE OUTSIDE....CRYING IN THE INSIDE

THE PAIN STILL THERE

IT WILL TAKE TIME TO F.............OFF.

IT MAY NEVER HEAL.