i have always been a frustrated writer

trying hard to convey in writings what i feel

not to let others suffer too

but just a way of expressing

and somehow feel relieved....

and i loved to write

when im sad...a little bit in pain inside

not because i want to let other people feel the guilt

maybe just to let it out

so many things to wish(do they really come true?)

so many plans remains as plans forever

so many questions(that need no answer)

i wish life is just a game and a game where i can win

i wish love is just a book where i could read all over

again...skip the sad part...and have a happy ending...

i wish i can bear the pain

i wish i can  wait and hope

i wish i had all the time 

i used to think i cannot live without you

but now i think i can...but not as happy as im with you

i used to wonder why i have to feel in love

just to be left with out it

i used to say im not alone  yet i feel im not  really saying what im feeling

the world sometimes not what you expect it to be

still i need to believe i can survive it

no questions asked...no complain..

no need of symphaty...just a little understanding

a little assurance..to stand by me

just a pat on my back saying im doing fine

just to  feel i belong and not just one looking in

i cried of decisions i have to make

regret is always at the end(why do regret never comes first and always in the end?)

i believe i have a good heart

doesnt it deserve a reward?

anyway as i said im a frustrated writer...

now i think with what im saying and writing here

im a frustrated drama actress too.

but isnt the world a temporary stage?

maybe im just playing my role....with conviction.