sometimes i feel too tired

of wearing a mask as a front

too tired of hiding what i feel

the pain of bitterness

the hurt that lingers

i used to say life is what we make it

but sometimes i too feel tired of that life

seems everything is not in their proper place

seems existence not worth the pain.....

but on second thoughts

think i can endure that pain

hiding what i feel

so others will come out in the open

keeping to myself the hurt

so others will be happy

smiling to the world like evrything is okey

boosting my ego that im a survivor

survivor of the pain and the hurt

yet deep inside it cuts like a knife.....

whats the used of keeping these pictures

of happy moments when all of them

are now things of the past?

whats the used of going to those places we used to go

when today im doing it all alone

whats the use of reminiscing those  happy moments together...when tears are falling everytime i think of them?

whats the purpose of having you in my life

when you were not really meant to stay here forever?

and whats the use of wearing a front

when the world really knows im hurting???

i wish i iknew all the answers

so i could stop these pretensions

so i could move on ...live a life

forget the past....start a new beginning

embrace a new world..welcome new hopes

wish i knew where to start

wish ill be happy again without the mask..

without a front!!!

       I AM WRITING THIS FOR A FRIEND....THUYY

I WISH YOU WILL FIND A NEW BEGINNING.

life is good my friend..

memories are made to stay

live those memories

but without the pain

learn to remember them

as things of the past

that you could look behind

with a smile in your heart

because happy or sad they may be

they are there because they are meant to be.